CHANGE

Change change change, i must admit i am 1 who does not like it all, i like the comfort zone, you know the all familiar cozy couch? yes not moving to the next cold sit and start to warm it all over again...eish.

You cant grow up unless you embrace change. trying to adjust into a new place is not easy at all especially if one has to leave behind family and friends. It is one of the most challenging things i have had to do because it involved a totally new environment, with life on a bit of a slower pace. I must say it has been quite tough ,there are moments I just need an all familiar hug from hubby or my sisters and all the familiar aromas of my house but they are not there.

And do you know what has kept me going through such times, its knowing that once i leave the place where am at i will never be the same person again, i would have blossomed due for yet another season.

I want to encourage anyone out there afraid to move and make a change to just go ahead and do it. God is always there for us no matter where we go, always pray for guidance for yourself and your loved ones. Remember James tell us that the{5:16} ........,
and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The
effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. 


Keep praying and have a happy sabbath

My Blue Begonia

"How could this be? where did all this drama come from?" I wondered. I glanced at the watch on the side table it almost appeared like in a dream, 2 o'clock in the morning. I looked at my boys sleeping soundly on their own, i just wish they could talk back but somehow they knew it had to be silent.
Bana kulu opened the door unceremoniously
"Rufaro, where are you from? surely you leave these boys with no one to go running after men? You have no shame! I thought you had changed but you are just like your mother,selfish and conceited."

I stared strongly into her eyes, "You will never understand.Mother was a loose woman who chased after men but  as for me, well they come running after me" I spoke to her with no remorse.

"What is the difference to me, you are all about selling your bodies, you will end up like a dead dog on the street.Just like her! Believe me i will not mourn for you? " she seethed.

"How could this woman could hate  her own daughter?"  i did not understand, it hurt so much to hear her speak  ill of the woman i loved and cared for, she was the pillar of our house hold,and when she passed  away, it was very painful.things were made worse when i found out the source of her income.My world crushed and shattered almost like i had been hit by an earthquake...

AFTER a WHILE

After a while i learnt the difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
i learnt that kisses do not mean forever
and presents WELL! They are whenever

After a while i soon learnt that even the sun scorches
when i spent too much time tending the garden
So i planted my own garden and decorated my soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring me flowers.

and i learnt to build my roads today cause hmmm....
tomorrow is uncertain,
i realised futures have a way of falling apart mid flight.
And i began to accept defeat with my head up and eyes ahead.

And after a while i learnt
that i am beautiful beyond measure
that i am are really strong
that i can endure
that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

After a while i learnt all this
Not with A grief of a child but
with the strength of a woman.

life is about a thousand journeys we take everyday